Just a wait...

We are still here! We had a wonderful thanksgiving with all of our family. Mitch made it through without many problems. He was just plain wore out when everyone left. But the good thing was he was able to wear jeans instead of pjs. That was an exhausting thing for him to do but he was determined.
We had Christmas with the boys last night. Turned out quite well the boys mom and grandmother were here and I think it seemed to make things more comfortable for the boys. They loved their gifts.
Mitch has done a lot of crying lately. Saying goodbye to old friends and giving them something to remember him by. It has been hard on me seeing him like this, but on the other hand I am so proud of him being able to to this. It seems like everything that is going on he says this is the last time. I put up the tree Wednesday night. I have a old rocker that sets by the tree. I went in later to see him sitting in the rocker crying telling me this is the last time he will have a christmas. Broke my heart!
He finally asked our Hospice Angel how long he had, she told him days. He said ” okay I am ready got my will, got my clothes, Lisa knows what to put on headstone, I have said my goodbyes. And by the way do you know if I can be buried in my boots?” Thought I would crack up..Patty (the nurse) could not stop laughing. I think that will be one of the moments that I will cherish the most. I just Love that man!
So now we just wait, they have increased his methadone, kept his dulidid the same but added a strong dose of valium so that he can go peacefully.
Thanks all for your support and listening to me. It helps so much to just let it pour out!
Happy Holidays and God bless.

I cant imagine how you feel at the moment. All I can say is that here in Lees Village UK I am thinking of you both. I hope he is able to control his pain and that you are able to keep him smiling.

Helen

Posted on December 2, 2011 at 12:44:57 PM by Helen